In a stand-up comedy clip I just heard the sentence “Like every poor kid, he desperately wanted a monkey” and I HAVE NEVER RELATED TO ANYTHING MORE
(Seriously, PoorKid!Me was obsessed with Monkey Trouble and I was SO READY to steal a capuchin you have no idea)
– Tao Te Ching
What my wife’s mother did (and allowed to be done) to her as a child only reinforces my belief that 99.999% of the population should not be allowed to breed.
I mean. I’m glad she’s alive because I love spending my life with her, obviously. But my selfish joy of being with her will never rationalize the hell she suffered, and still suffers.
I’m so sad and so angry. Why do evil people exist? I mean, even scarier is the fact that not only do people believe in a god who (they claim) allows life to be this way – but they actually worship it. Like… that’s just… a mindset that genuinely frightens me. That kind of “god said so” madness could make someone perform or excuse just about any psychotic action.
Like. The world is sixty-eight kinds of backwards and no one sees it? No one cares? 90% of people just go “oh well better make some more humans, maybe THIS batch’ll fix the world!”
Honestly, I long for the day I leave this plane of existence.
Like seriously are they all under some mind control shitstorm that gives them an orgasmic dose of endorphins every time they punch out the words “trans women of color” on their keyboards
Me after 2 copitas of sherry: Ok Google. What age does menopause start?
Our privacy hedge is finally planted! Here’s hoping they’ll grow fast and fill in the gaps so I won’t have to look at the new home construction or wave to our neighbors ever again. ??
#introvertliving
Me eating breakfast: so what do you wanna do for dinner
Me: Ok. I have checked all the knobs. The stove is off.
My anxiety: are you sure you didn’t accidentally turn one of the knobs on while checking them
Sometimes… it’s just… overwhelming… that nearly everyone on this planet is a mindless idiot.
I mean. Nothing personal. But. Between the selfish breeding and the sexism and the religion and the meat-eating and the gender roles and the capitalism and just. Almost no one… seems to notice… how bad it is? And like… it’s so bad. Everywhere. There are tiny subtle Bads and big obvious Bads and lots of in between but even the big ones, people hardly notice, or choose to ignore.
I mean, I’m not fucking perfect. I could do better. I could start composting everything and only shop at thrift stores and buy a tiny little eco house and quit my job and get rid of my car and ride a bike and all that shit. And I don’t, because I like my world-escaping comforts. A lot.
But like… there’s so much more to it than that. And… everyone else just seems… braindead. It feels like I’m the only conscious mind in a virtual simulation. That’s how it feels… day to day, once I leave my house. Like I’m the only one who’s alive.
New blooms are blooming! (I didn’t even know we had a hydrangea???) ???
